The First Mile is a Liar

I know anyone who has ever visited this site more than once thinks I have completely abandoned my little world here on the world wide web. I haven’t. I like to think I’ve been on a really  long holiday. So here I am today with a few post run (okay, run/walk) thoughts.

First thing, the first mile always is a dirty liar!  This morning the weather was amazing and my workout schedule has been totally on point so there was no way I was passing up an opportunity.  I started off with a nice warm up (aka…..walking) then I went into a very gentle run with a nice ratio of walking included. That’s when  the mileage started whispering it’s dirty lies to me telling me how heavy I felt, how  slow I was and that I was just tired. It’s that feeling as if a two year old was hanging on to each leg refusing to let go as I tried to progress. My whole being said “GO HOME!” Luckily before I knew it, I was in the thick of mind clearing remembrances (oh yeah I need to call so and so,  oh yeah I need to get that order out, oh yeah I need to start the washer).  By mile three I was golden!

So this morning the temperature at 5 a.m. was a beautiful 55 degrees! I was totally in bliss with this. I was ready to pull out the blankets  paired with a stout cup of coffee. I wanted comfy sweatshirts and sweaters with scarves and gloves.  I was ready to pack the house up and say ” We’re moving to Vancouver!” (I’m sure the leaves are changing in Vancouver but if not don’t spoil it for me. Just let me think it!).  I wanted to pair it all up with a good book and a fireplace (p.s. I don’t have a fireplace but a girl can dream).

Then I started thinking (this was heading into mile 3) that I was ready for some type of adventure. Maybe a race. Marathon maybe?  That reminded me of when I was 10 or so I saw this program on PBS and they were talking  about corporate adventure racers. These people were kayaking through the Amazons and hiking through the mountains.  I remember thinking, “I want to do that!” I was ready to drink the Kool Aid! They explained how to take short steps up the hills to get up the mountain  faster and immediately I was practicing these things on the one tiny hill near my house which was located on flat lands in south Mississippi. I was a 10 year old girl who lived a very sheltered life and was blown away that these things were possible. There was more out there than what sleepy town USA had to offer me. There was more than getting up, going to work , punching the clock, rinse and repeat.  Whatever  stirred  inside me  at  10 years old and is still laying there inside me today.  The thought of an adventure of any sort gets me  excited. I don’t think that needs to be wasted (as I have, obviously).

Finally this mornings cool brisk run/walk led me to   remember this……..

That’s about all I have today. Nothing Earth shattering. Just me being me. Hope you a have a fabulous day!

Cheers!

 

 

Day 1

It’s spring. The flowers are blooming, the birds are chirping. People are emerging from their houses looking at longer days and warmer weather. That also means………..less clothes. UGH.

And you know, for me it’s not about the “lesser clothes” issue but it’s a reminder of what I’m not accomplishing. Sure I’ve been making weak attempts at being a better version of myself. VERY. WEAK. ATTEMPTS.

I have to have some accountability. Even if no one is reading this. I just need the habit of making myself do something good. A streak so to speak.

Preferably at the end of the day. So I can post my food journal. You know, for EVERYONE to see.

Here’s to Day 1.

Cheers!

 

Confessions of A Procrastinator

Hello, my name is Brandy, and I procrastinate. A few minutes becomes in a couple hours followed by later today which turns into first thing tomorrow morning and that becomes I’ll tell Siri to remind tonight and so on and so on. Which leads to today…………….80 days later. Ugh. Then today I came across this post………….Tomorrow – New and No Mistakes, YET!! It is written by my cousin (cousin by marriage actually) and it inspired me to stop procrastinating! It’s like she said/quoted, well actually L.M. Montgomery said “isn’t it nice to think that tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it yet?”

Yes thank goodness!!

I also tend to overthink things to the point that by the time I get to where I need to be I’m mentally zapped. I’m also guilty of overplanning. I think that if I have the perfect schedule/plan I’ll be fool proof. Or if I do this, this and this then I can get this done. Instead, I’m exhausted mentally and physically. I like to think I dream big which can be good and bad. I dream so big sometimes I just do nothing because I don’t know where to start so I just don’t do.  Sometimes (and I do me sometimes) it’s best to rip the bandaid off and just do. A cold cannonball jump will get you moving.

So here’s to a optimistic tomorrow! May my day be productive, enjoyable and perfectly planned.

 

Cheers! 

 

Thankful #3

I am thankful for the rain.

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We have had a really dry summer and until two weekends ago, a dry fall. I mean, it’s not like have a garden that needs watering I just enjoy rain. Nothing treacherous or damaging. I’ve never been to Oregon but its that kind of weather I would imagine they have that I think I would like (notice a lot of “I thinks” in that statement). Anyways, I love sun and sand and all things beachy. I could move to Hawaii and live my days away there in the surf but I’m enjoy a good rain day (or two or three).  I love how it washes everything clean  even though there are mud puddles.

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I love umbrellas and rain boots.

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.I love running in the rain  (a light rain). So when I have rainy days, I tend to be thankful.

What are you thankful for?

~Cheers!

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Verbal Fasting

So this particular topic in which I will call Verbal Fasting is also known as “Not speaking negative.”  I realize this is not so much a running/fitness topic but today it will be.

Negative talk is like a virus. It creeps it’s way into your life and has a way of whispering in your ear all the ugly, selfish, negative, self hating talk that it can:

*You’re not good enough.

*You’ll never be skinny.

*Only  skinny people run.

*You’re too slow to run a marathon.

*You’ll never succeed.

*Other people do it better than you.

*You’ll fail just like everyone expects you too.

The list can go on and on but you get the point. I’m the world’s worst/best at negative talk. At some point in my life I allowed it to make its way into my life and it infected/affected me. Let me help you from making the same mistakes. It’s something I have to work on all the time or otherwise it tries to root itself back in to my life.

I came up with Verbal Fasting. Before speaking it, accepting it or reacting to the negativity, I stop, I pray about it and I move forward. What does this mean for you? Stop, think about it (pray about it) and  decide, is it good, pure, true? Then, move forward. I refuse to accept the nagging little voice that tries to gum up my thoughts. Whether it be frustration, anxiety, anxiousness or just negative self talk, I step back and decide what I’m feeling and hearing is it really true (which normally it’s not), take control of it and then deny it. Squash the negative feeling or thought.

I call it verbal fasting because to me it’s like fasting for religious purposes. When someone fast, they do not go out and announce the fasting. Instead, they go into their quiet place to pray and meditate silently. Verbal fasting has the same concept. When a situation arises, instead of reacting or acting on the negative, stop, go into your quiet place and pray and meditate on it. Is it true? Is it right? Is it pure? Is it lovely? If not, then deny and refuse it.

It’s not easy and it’s hard to take hold of those negative thoughts and feelings but the outcome is a brighter, happier, and lovelier person; a stronger person physically and mentally; someone who knows they are good and worthy.

Now I do this by having quiet time in the morning to review what’s good and pure. I recommend positive messages (Rick Warren) or  positive music such as KLove to play in the background while you work of a day.  I work very hard to keep the negative at bay. It affects me. It rubs off on me and before you know it, I’m cranky and I have the “Meh” attitude. I don’t see the positive in a situation. I  have a negative cloud hanging around me. Now I’m not saying you won’t have bad days. We all have a bad day from time to time, but a string of bad days is not good. Constantly feeling the need to put people in their place is not good. It’s not good for your soul or mind. Constantly thinking “I’ll never lose weight” leaves an anchor tied to your mindset. Deny it. Squash it. Declare that you will do better and be better. Instead of getting angry at someone, give them grace. Instead of escalating a situation can you defuse it by just giving a person grace? If you do will the situation end and everyone move on to a better outcome?  I only bring this up because all of this affects the negative and positives in your life and in others lives as well.

So the next time the little voice whispers “You’ll never reach your goals” or  “You’re not good enough”……deny it. Shout back, “I will and I am. I will reach my goals!! I am most certainly good enough!! I declare it and believe it!!”

Fitness and running is such a mental place. If we’re in a mental rut or bad spot then our health and fitness suffers. If we protect our minds and heart  then it’s very possible that our health and fitness can soar to places you’ve never been before.

How do you protect and renew your mind?

-Cheers

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things. – Philippians 4:8

 

Motivation Monday

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” No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.” Hebrews 12:11 NIV

 

” Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going.” Jim RyunSnoopy

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Happy Monday!! 

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Cheers! 

 

Round Is A Shape

Okay so I know I’ve been MIA.  I haven’t had motivation to write I guess.  I think the last time I wrote anything it said something like “Hello June.”  Soon it was goodbye June and hello July and the vicious cycle continued.  I find myself saying “They’re only so many hours in the day and you can only do what you can do.” It’s partially true but quiet honestly, we make time for what we really want to do or don’t want to do. Never thought I would find time to do nothing.

Anyways, this summer has been some what productive. I have been working out in my garage with a few friends, my husband calls it “Garage Pilates” but really, it’s  a mix up of pilates with Jillan Michaels with a dab of circuit training.  I’ve done more push ups this summer than I have in the last year!!  It’s been good for me.  I’ve also been logging in low mileage and beyond that…..that’s it.


With that being said, I am sad to say I’ve put back on a good bit of weight that I had so proudly lost.  It started with Christmas candy my mother made 2 Christmases ago. And I made an attack plan post Christmas with high mileage involved. I was prepped for beast mode. Then my Dad passed away and I don’t remember much of the rest of 2014. It’s a blur.  I wouldn’t say I binged my way through the year or self-soothed myself with food. I just didn’t pay attention to what I ate.  I ate whatever.  No mindfulness or care. I just ate.

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I am grateful for very supportive friends because through the blur they kept me going and encouraging me to keep moving forward. Even if they knew what they were doing or didn’t, they helped me to keep moving forward.  I did a half marathon that should have been a full and I did  another half marathon that should have been faster. But I finished.

You know, I always thought I was so big and bad and tough and could weather anything. After several rounds with life I’ve learned I’m not as weatherproof as I would like to imagine myself to be. Over the last several years life has thrown some serious upper cuts and sadly I backed into my corner to sit till I saw an apporpriate time to reemerge. The younger version of myself would have kicked my butt from here till the next state if I’d had known I would one day have a spirit of fear and defeat. How awful!!! I’m working on it. Maybe that’s the part of growing up and going through the trials and tribulations of life. Learning to be weatherproof (or some version of it). Anyways, I’ve hidden from you guys because I was so disappointed with myself for A. not weathering life a little better and B. not keeping the weight off.  I jusitified a lot of it by saying “Oh, I don’t need to share everything.” Or “I’m just not that into the blogging thing anymore .” I’m so full of crap.  I was lying to myself and hiding at the same time.

So I’ve recommited myself to the good fight. To be a better version of myself. Happier, healthier and stronger.


So I guess all that’s left to say is……

Blessings

Oh happy days!  I’m so far behind on keeping you guys up to date on whats going on but that just means I’m having way too much fun to slow down and update!!!

So where am I?

I’m just running. I ran a half marathon a couple of weeks ago and PR’d!! Whoop Whoop!  Okay I pr’d by 4 seconds, but who cares!?!? It’s a PR and  that’s all that matters. A win is a win. NEXT………… because I pushed my tempo hard during the race (dare I say I  actually raced!?!?) to get that 4 second PR  I developed what we’ll call a glitch in my hip and hamstring.  It curtailed any quality running I might have produced post half-marthon and then I made matters worse by  wallowing  in a little self pity thinking “WHY ME!?!”  However, as of this week I think (and I’m saying that real loosely) that the “glitch” is gone. After a grueling and sorry excuse for a long run 2 Saturdays ago,  I saw Steve the Postman , who is an Ironman and just familiar face around here in the running and biking community,  and he made the comment  “Biking is a lot easier.”  With that, it finally hit me………I need to bike after I run (for right now) to loosen up my legs after a run to get the “glitch” out.

My parents live near the Longleaf Trace where I bike and run so I’m able to park at their house (because I would be DEVASTATED if someone stole my bike so I park there for security) run out for ever how many miles my heart (or schedule) desires and then come back grab my bike and head off into the sunset. Just like my running I’m not a fast biker either but I enjoy it. I usually feel like I’m clippin along pretty good until the mad, crazy serious bikers go flying past me . It’s all good though. It’s inspiring to see them make it look so effortless and easy.

Anyways, so yes, I’m running and biking. Now that winter has gone with the wind, I’m doing all that I can to be outside as much as possible. Working in the yard, cooking outside on the grill, and at night I find myself outside on the porch reading a book or even watching tv (yeah, I’m kind of lucky like that!!).

What’s on tap for the future? There are no races planned at this current moment except for the  New Orleans Rock and Roll Marathon.  I actually do have a plan of attack for the New Orleans Rock and Roll Marathon but thanks to “the glitch” I’ve been off the plan for the last couple of weeks.

You know, it doesn’t take much for most of us to throw our hands up in the air (and wave them around like we just don’t care………..sorry couldn’t resist) and say “I quit!” when things don’t go just like we planned them. If all the things in the world aren’t  lined up just so then we just can’t seem to stay on course. That’s why goals and plans are so important. They give us a target to aim for,  a beacon.  Having those goals and plans set in place give us direction so when we have to get off course for a bit we know where to return to. Reaching our goals are not always easy and plans are not always fail proof but giving ourselves a little grace makes reaching those goals more bearable and almost pleasant. At the end of it all, is sweet victory. It may be a different kind of victory than you originally set out for but a win is a win no matter what.

So until next time……Cheers!

Five Friday

Hello Friday! I didn’t think it could get here fast enough and at the same time I’m like, “What the heck happen to February!?!” I had set big goals for myself this month: weight loss, running, motivation. I didn’t even have time to get started before I’m looking at a whole new month! I guess time flies when I’m having fun!

So I’ve joined in on a new link up party (well new to me) called Five Friday.

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(Cynthia @ You Signed Up for What and Courtney @ Eat Pray Run, DC) decided on a theme this week.  All About me! Apparently there’s a number of us joining in their fun wagon so this is a great way for us all to get to know each other.

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1. I’m a BMW. Well, those are my initials. I  used to be BSM but when I got married I figured out if I dropped my awful middle name (in the south we love to double name our children, not me! Not having it) I could become a BMW! So on race forms, when I sign them electronically, I LOVE signing them BMW!

2. When I’m running and if I need to be to certain spot by a certain distance (ie. at the car by 1 mile) and I’m going to be short (ie. at the car by .90 miles) I start slowing down. As if slowing down will somehow add distance. I do it every time!

3. I sell appliances and flooring for my big girl job. You know the bread butter job to keep the lights on and pay the mortgage. I prefer to think of it the thing I do Monday through Friday to pay for the races and running stuff on the weekends!

4. My first true love is fitness/health/running. I started off getting a degree in Exercise physiology, moved to physical therapy but life handed me a completely different path and here I am!

5. I’ve won first place in several fitness competitions in the late 90’s.  Fun times!!

Alright, I’m outta here!  I’m going to be traveling this weekend to far and wide places to run a 15k!  It was a spur of the moment decision along with some other special side trips as well. ROAD TRIP!!!

Have a great weekend! Cheers!

 

 

Workout Wednesday

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Welcome to Workout Wednesday!!  A mid week workout to break up all the craziness going on in your life (and mine too)!

So how’s it going? Are you making plans and acting on them? Or are you wishing, hoping and dreaming that somehow your life will be magically changed for the better?  Sometimes living the good life requires us to be happy with where we are currently and with what we have. Maybe you are in the midst of your “good life” but you don’t see it. Remember to be grateful for what you have and where you are but strive to always do better and be better. Believe in yourself (a little self love never hurts, but like anything else too much can be well, too much) and that you are meant to succeed.  I believe in you. I believe that you were meant to set out and do good things and love others. You can’t do those things if your not healthy so that’s where the self love comes in. Love yourself enough to workout daily (even if it’s just a walk and few squats) and to eat properly.

I know your life may be a little topsy turvy but it’s only temporary. So don’t forget to notch out a little time in that crazy life of yours. If your not at your healthiest and at your best, wading through the craziness will only make things more difficult. Once again, I can’t say it enough, I believe in you. You can do it. If you think I’m talking to you………….I am.  I’ve been there and I understand. I’ve had my world turned upside down and all around (and as life dictates, I will again) but we always come out a little wiser and little stronger on the other side.

Just keep fighting the good fight and remember to love yourself. Be gentle with yourself and give yourself some grace. We’re not perfect but a healthier, stronger version of yourself will emerge. I believe it.

Today’s workout is provided by yours truly! It’s a workout I’ve used with students several times, and they always hate it love it.  Take it slow and steady. It’s truly an up down workout that will get your heart rate going. Cardio is a great way to get the weight loss train going.  Modify if you need to and remember,  if it hurts or doesn’t feel right, STOP!  

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Cheers!

Inspirational Sunday

Happy Sunday! I love Sundays. They always seem to be quiet, a little slower and overall just a good day. That’s why I thought today would be a great day to pause and make it Inspirational Sunday. To give thanks and thought to where it should be.  As I mentioned earlier in the year, I’ve developed the motto/slogan/philosophy…….Move, Nourish, Believe. Not my idea as far as putting those three things together (oh how I wish was though) but when I discovered it just summed everything up for me. It’s something that can be carried with me everyday.  Everyday should encompass some movement (aka workout), nourishment rather than just eating and believing. Some people believing is believing in their goals and believing in themselves. For me, it’s taking time out of everyday and spending time with God. It can be 5 minutes or it can 1 hour.  Either way spending time with God is just as important if not more important  for me as getting in a run or making sure I’m eating a balanced diet.  So I thought I would share a few inspirations to get you started before Motivational Monday comes charging in.

Lately I’ve been reading Jesus Calling (the devotional).  It’s been one of the best ones I’ve read in a long time.  To me it’s a devotional that takes you on more of a journey rather than a problem solving or even a vauge devotional book. I say vague because sometimes there’s devotional books with no direction. Which is fine, at this moment, it’s just not for me.

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You should check it out. They even have a version for children!

Hope you have a great Sunday and be sure to check back tomorrow for your weekly dose of Motivational Monday.

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Workout Wednesday

Workout Wednesday is a great way to break up a hectic week. Today I’m posting a video from the creator of the website, Blogliates.  This video I use a few times a week in the morning or even before I go to bed. It’s nice to stretch and strengthen. I like it at the end of the day when I’ve been sitting a lot and I need to lengthen my spine.  Hope you enjoy!!

10 Reasons I’m Not Allowed To Make Countdown List Anymore

Yes that super long title was totally necessary.  As of today I’m not allowed to do any more countdown list  or anything of the sort.

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Here’s my perfectly clear reasons why I should never be allowed to do a list type post again…….

1. I have no follow through

2. I never complete them

3.  Through 10. I never complete them.

So as of today, no more countdown list. I never follow through. It’s not my strong point. So I promise you as of today, no more countdown list.

That is all.