12 Days Left & I’m A Headcase!

12 days left!

 

12 days!!

Physically I’m holding up. No shin pain, very very minimum hip soreness, hamstrings and calves are great. I’m not achy. Quads are staying healthy. I’m physically good.  Next go around I probably should do non-weight bearing back exercises to help strengthen to go along with ab exercises but overall I would give myself a B+ (always room for improvement!).
 So what is going on in my head right now…………..
“OH MY GOSH!!!”
 headcase
Okay seriously, at this point I’m feeling:
*Apprehensive
*Anxious
*Nervous
*Excited
*Mental Exhaustion
*Irritability
It’s all natural to feel this way and I know that I’m ready. I know that I got this and that I’ll finish. I’m mentally tough and physically. I’ve beat this body over the last 12 weeks into submission. It knows that at 5 a.m. September 1st  that it will run 26.2 miles and like it!!
force
I’m also starting to taper. No it’s not a new craft project, it’s where my mileage is cutting back so my body can store up energy and repair itself for the big day.  I also have to cut back on my calories. Since I won’t be running as many miles in the next 12 days I have to scale back on the calories so I won’t gain weight going into my marathon.  What does that look like for me? Going from 2000 calories to 1650.  I don’ t mind. It’s also a great way for my body to get the signal that I can’t eat as much after my 12 days is up. Once this round of marathon training is done I’ll need to scale back on my eating or otherwise I’ll eat us all out of house and home!! I’m such an eater.
OMG! I love food!! Anyways………..
With all the stuff going through my head (Am I ready, did I run enough, will I fall as flat as a pancake on my face from not training enough) just a barrage of different thoughts but I’m actually okay. Nervous but okay. Anxious but okay.
I’ve told myself if I can complete this marathon in the time that I want to finish (or just finish) then I’m going to be okay.I’ll be okay anyways but I NEED this marathon. I need this finish. If I can do this (which I know I can because quitting is not an option) it’s like a universal sign that I’m going to be okay. That anything from that moment on is just chump change. It’s like a letter from God saying “Brandy, you’re going to be okay.” Crazy, I know but it’s the best way I can describe it.
okay
Have you ever needed something so badly you felt like your life depended on it?
I know my life doesn’t depend on this. I know the world will not stop turning. In my little world, in the spec of dust that I am in this universe, it matters to me.
I didn’t mean to go into all that!!  Whew!  Serisously, the mindset going into these type of events will make you a little crazy. Some people are just all like “Whatever” but not me. I’m all headcase, need a xanax stat! Maybe instead of Pounds to Miles I should be The Headcase Runner.
Okay kids, till next time!
Cheers!
dreams
3 comments
Becca
Becca

Can't wait to hear about your marathon! You have trained so well for this& I hope you can just relax and have fun come race day. You have done most of the hard part already! That is the beauty of training as well as you have :) race day is a party!!

apricotusm
apricotusm

Eddie, I just realized this comment was here!! Thank you for the encouragement. Don't know how you ended up here either but I'm glad you did!! Thanks a ton for the encouraging words. And good luck to you on your race day! Cheers!

Eddie
Eddie

I'm not sure how I stumbled on to this blog, but I felt the need to give you some encouragement! I am also a runner w/ 5 Marathons under my belt (#6 is Sept 8th). You will run your marathon, and you will finish! You are much too determined to succeed to allow yourself to fail! It is your mindset during your race that will make this experience great and memorable. At this point your training is done! You have to trust your training and stick to your race plan, whether the goal is to finish, or finish under a time goal. Race day is not the time to second guess! Race day is the time to take it all in and enjoy the ride! When you just let go and enjoy the moment the miles will just fly by!! Good Luck! Eddie